wait

Waiting here in shades of tears..without you life seems years away.

Yet the love we share will clear the air and the clouds wont hold no rain...

Love is all I have to give to you,hope is all I have in my veins...

Just a few more days princess before we see the light of day again..

Share...

Wings of fire, and shades of apprehension...

burning in a deep thought of contemplation..

if only you had extended your numb hands over my numb ones...

Sure would blood have gushed in to fill the surrounding vacuum....

Rabbit teeth, my princess of day dreams...

All is right, when I am you.. 

U make me feel a prince when all i want is be new to new...

Just to end my poem..can't live without you...

BABA ..the eternal king for the unblessed

They say all good things finally come to an inevitable end...and the Sikkim trip was no exception.....It came as a good breather for all of us who kept their promises...But what was so special about the trip that makes me write this one ????....well I guess there has to be something for sure....for me it was special as I got to catch up with my old friends...and made couple of very interesting friends in Sagar (an ocean of talent with a positive outlook towards life) and Newton (in keeping with his name he has developed a liking towards absolute dynamics that govern the daily activities, good photographer and more importantly a person with a good heart.)

Together we found solace in BABA (BABA Harbajan Singh) and the anecdotes that gyrate around him. As grapevine would have it BABA has been protecting the India China border for years now and has been constantly monitoring the Indian militants in the border to give their best with SLAP being his primary weapon to keep them on their toes. Common belief also has it that BABA would caution India three days prior(you will be able to guess why only three days)incase there is Indo China war.The best thing that attracts us about BABA is that he brings hope to our disgraced life. BABA had done nothing noteworthy of remembrance during his lifetime (though he was highly motivated and devoted and all towards his nation) to have a shrine constructed in his name…He was washed off by a running stream and found elsewhere three days later(now you know why, don't you) and before going to heaven he happened to bother few of his colleagues in their dreams (I guess it was more of an incubus for them), that led to the temple thing at about 13000 feet above sea level. So the learning from this exercise is get into a good institution, be highly motivated, being different in thoughts and deeds would add that extra “delta” to your cause, have a very sad death (against the run of play) worthy of pity. Last but not the least give some of your well wishers umpteen number of nightmares once you are done with. This will ensure that you are remembered more out of pity than for your deeds. But who cares anyways because a weak unsatisfied (frustrated one would also do) soul counts more than a normal one…

princess

And yet things be told even if they seem old

About how I feel when the trace of you is gone

The darkness is there but hope still seems to dominate

Dusty inside longs for a cloudless rain

An effort to bind things back to life..yes under the selfless heaven...

oh..others might wonder what's the point

For we belong to a world where they don't...

Breaking the dawn with soft caress ...

Is the princess of day dreams...

Perfect in her charming ways..

And brighter than the brightest star 

She fills me with love beyond words..

Extraordinary in her ordinary ways..

She wears the sun and yet loves the rain..

Evaded in the melancholy of time...

she found the one to be shared the oneness with...

Blessed is the soul that shares her love

For angels on earth is a forgone thing 

Until i met this charming miss 

Who all at once fulfills my thousand dreams...

Though I leave your town tonight,

You are all but sealed in my prayers and dreams

I'll soon be back to hold your hands 

And fulfill all our honest schemes.....

rust...

 

WHERE ARE WE EXPANDING DEAR

All this while i was wondering what might have happened if there hadn't been a BIG BANG.....But then what struck my mind was something even more concerning.. was there really a BIG BANG and if so what existed before that. I always had the feeling that if we are traversing in positive direction of time now....before BIG BANG was there something that might have traversed in the negative direction of time..i always believed in conservation of energy..that led to this thought..but this is preposterous as i forgot that entropy is irreversible. Even had entropy been reversible then also my imaginary explanation wouldn't have sufficed as phenomena that have root level reversible dynamics fail to produce a reversible system.
Then what is that, that could even if slightly fulfil my senses of universe being nothing to something that we perceive today..Big guns say that the universe was a grain of infinite density in the beginning just before Big bang (point from where we took control over god, although any of us were not there physically our analytical spirits can still go back into time uptil that point )...If the universe was a single grain just before big Bang what was the container in which it contained itself... wasn't that container a part of the universe.. and if not then where to accomodate the extra element...after big bang i agree the grain expanded to form the universe and it will keep on expanding till atleast we become part of Satan, or to be logical until the gravitational energy just about overcomes the so called cosmic energy...so i am keeping my fingers crossed for mankind to witness a state where gravitational energy overcomes the cosmological elements so that everything falls back to create a grain and yet another BIG bang eventually.. and fortunately some space in my imaginary container for the souls of the Big Guns to see their mathematical solutions unfold.....Till then we would be as ignorant as ever..... But who cares
anyways....If we would have known what existed before BIG BANG who would have bothered to worship god..Seems like our universe is a problem which would never yeild a definite answer from the lack of initial boundary conditions....so lets stop trying.. and have some fun with what we have....

hello is it "ME" i am looking for....

Its been 3 years now.. and i feel so tired..... i have been questioning myself for days now...what makes life perfect...having good friends....reading good books..getting philosophical from time to time..dining at good restaurants...dating random women......listening to pyscedelic rock....watching meaningful movies...hitting the grooviest discotheques and lounge bars across the city...and so forth...I had a fair share of all of these in the last 3 years in this alien city... and yet I seem to be lost more than ever (even songs don't soothe me these days, calls from parents annoy me, don't even entertain my younger brother over the phone..have lost track of my old friends)....
i seem to have lost the charm in petty things that used to once fill my inner senses.......the walk to the riverside in my hometown....the odd joint after the unattended classes in the university ground....the timeouts at EDEN GARDENS....the bonfire at the THEK after the dismal class test exploits... the gathering of funds to sponser for a bottle of whiskey....the eggrolls(with
abundance of onion) and chloromint to kill the liquor odour...the wait before the tutions to see someone treasured..the booze in the middle of "H Domain" (accompanied with the constant fear of getting picked up by the cops )..
But are these the only elements that have bereft me of my equilibrium.. i guess not..because these past things seem to find a meaning only now.....I sat back and contemplated on a weekend doing without my share of booze/dope..I felt uneasy without my routine weekend liquors...I came up with nothing that could have possibly restored the tranquility of my mind...I put on my sport shoes and tracks and decided to go out for a walk( or was it a run away from the
harsh reality that was engulfing me each nano second ?) I ran past the odd hospital (thronging with potential H1N1 victims), pan stalls, the dinky restaurant, the odd good face, the liquor stores,etc haulting only at the odd signals(fortunately the city doesn't have lot many traffic signals)... i felt good.. i felt new.. i returned home feeling a new man...and why not...i have managed to crack the mystery afterall....hehe..i spend the rest of the day solving some
gaussian integrals....and then called up dad.. for what i want to do for the rest of my life....i am yet to embark on my venture...there is an appropriate time for everything(i guess)...these days i might not be the most happiest person around...but i feel happy at the thought that i am no more directionless.. i have started loving songs all over again....i have started playing cricket on weekends.. i have resumed calling up my friends from time to time....i have started respecting myself again.....